...just going 'round and 'round in your mind trying to make sense of it?
This week I've been thinking a lot about our appointed time of death. Lovely subject, eh? It's not that I'm preoccupied on the death part of it, but more on the sovereignty of God part of it.
Here's how the whole thing got started...I happened to think of and mention to LinZ that I wanted to get some of those scissors made to cut through seatbelts because in an emergency, it would make it much easier to get the girls out of their carseats. Her response was that if it was their time to die, they would, and if it wasn't, they wouldn't.
That's where I get stuck...see, I *think* I believe that. I really do. BUT, doesn't God expect us to be reasonable? I mean, if you jump off the Empire State Building, chances are you're gonna die. Obviously, God has allowed that to happen, but I certainly don't think he caused it.
I think what it really boils down to is fear. Now, I'm really not that fearful. I do tend to overthing things, and I like to be prepared, but I don't fear the death of my children. My heart breaks at the thought of losing them...but that's my pure selfishness. In reality, if something were to happen to them, I am confident in the goodness of our God, and knowing they were with him in Heaven makes it bearable to even consider. (Uh, the caveat to that is I simply cannot bear the thought of them being kidnapped or taken - I beg God regularly to please not let that happen to them...again, it's not the death part but the rest of it...I seriously cannot even think about it.)
Okay, so it comes down to me choosing to believe that God is in control and not trying to figure out all the ins and outs of it, but I am SO analytical, that I really wanna know where that balance is - or if there is evan a balance.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) -
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'"
2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV) -
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
Psalm 91:4-6 (NIV) -
"He (God) will cover you with His feathers,
and under His wings, you will find refuge;
His faithfullness will be your shield and your rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday."
Isaiah 55:8-9 (NKJV) -
"'For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.
'For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.'"
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there's a line (sometimes it's clear....sometimes, not....) where faith meets personal responsibility. it would be silly of you to not attempt to save the girls if you were in a situation that deemed it necessary....but if you did what you could and you couldn't, that's different. yes, you have faith in god that he could save them, but that doesn't mean sit back and watch, you know?
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